Fire and Desire

Last month I witnessed the glorious Hunter's Moon.  I was riding high from the energy of the previous day's activities celebrating my baby girl's 20th birthday, and was excited to do a full moon ritual.

I live close to the City (NYC) and work an hour south, so I had a long time to build the anticipation for what was to come.  Who knows what I was listening to on the radio, but I remember not paying attention to the sky until I drove over a bridge and saw the equivalent of this image in front of me:

The moon was so large, full and the most calming amber.  My view had it peeking over the shoulder of One World Trade, but you get the gist.  Called my daughter all excited and screaming.  She basically said "uhmmm okay.  I guess..."  Bye girl...BYE!  I couldn't get home fast enough.  Geeked out and ready to prep my candles, set my intentions, meditate and manifest.   This is how I thought it would be....

Then Reality Steps In...

I have NO IDEA WHAT I'M DOING.  Zest and Zeal without knowledge will have you intensely putting out energy and drawing in explosions.  In other words, fire is hot, and I am not a fireman.

So I began by pulling out my white, green, purple and orange candles.  Well first I saged my room.  Clearing my space of any negative energy that I may bring in is something I've been drawn to do often.  Also, I wanted to set a protective space around me while I worked.  Then I asked my spirit guide, through a pendulum which candles I should use.  From there began the intention setting via writing out declarations for each candle on small pieces of torn paper.  Okay so all of this sounds like I'm on the right track.  In writing this out, it feels as though I was, but there's always a left turn on my railroad of fun.

"God protects fools and babies."

I don't have a black candle.  In fact I can't find any in the local stores, even today.  So I took my orange candle and put my black tourmaline bracelet around it to symbolize protection.  "She's Crafty" comes to mind when I find ways to work around a potential issue.  Spirit said put the papers under the candles, but Amuri spoke up and said "It's better to burn the paper within the candle to really show belief in the process."  I swear I don't do drugs, but that was some thinking a high person would have.  And then I lit the candles, said my prayer and began meditating.

As my eyes were closed, there seemed to be a glow coming on my right. That's where I had the protection candle going.  I opened my eyes to see this (because of course we have to document EVERYTHING!):

That looked like some "Book of Shadows" type magic going and I'm not a Charmed one.  After securing my phone, I get the candle to put it out.  WHY DID I BLOW?!?!?!  One spark jumped down on the floor while another jumped up to my hair.  THANK GOD I DON'T HAVE A RELAXER!  or a Jheri Curl...

So I screamed for my daughter, while patting out my hair.  Run to the bathroom to put out the candle while screaming for again...No response.  Did she pass out?  Was she kidnapped?  Did she suddenly become deaf?  No she was listening to K-Pop.

"Because you decided to start a fire as soon as I press play" -  Little 

I run to the kitchen because there was the fire on the floor.  Remember that?  Yeah it was on the floor.  I grab a bowl and she looks at me like "what in the heck is wrong with this nut?"  I say FIRE, while filling the bowl.  She runs behind me.  I turn to run with the bowl of water and we collide.  The bowl goes flying into the air, and comes crashing down.  For a minute I made it literally rain... I grab another bowl, fill it with water and run to my room.  Only to see the fire is in the same spot as it was when I left it.  It had not spread, it did not grow in height, it was just still.  I pour the water on it, putting most of the fire out.  Then I grab the bowl of water I had sitting on the dresser (forgot about that) and put the rest out, just as the daughter ...let's call her Little...comes running in with a pitcher of water.

"Smelled like some voodoo shit in your room.  Casting binding spells lmao" - Thumper Dwayne

So there we were with the house smelling like burned hair, candle wax and intention oil during the full moon.  We were in fact protected from my stupidity.  The floors did not burn, we did not burn...or so I thought...and we lived to tell a funny story with the house intact.  Also I have a new hair style :)

Lesson Learned.