Love is a House

Dear Daysi,

There was a time in 2018 when things seemed to be completely out of order in multiple aspects of my life.  Love, money, self, work and inspiration fell completely out of balance; chaos is the word that best describes all of my every day experiences back then.  My life was the equivalent of a radio placed on scan to find a station, but none fit what you are seeking.

There was a day in September that was my lowest.  I didn't know how I was going to pay the rest of  my daughter's tuition.  At work we were fighting daily about a project.  My clothes stopped fitting again. We weren't talking to each other within the foundation.  My heart was broken by who I thought was the love of my life.  I was beyond over it and at the point of hitting a self destruct button.  Even Sims didn't give me pleasure no matter how many I killed off to put in my Simetary.

Then I walked downstairs to the market and saw a booth.

The aroma from the oils and herbs in your candles, energy from the crystals and warmth from the smile on your face had the gravitational pull of Venus to lead the wounded peaces of my heart say, "What is this crystal used for?"  I had so many questions, but that was the only one I could verbalize.

You see, that meeting was the first of many in which you reached into the womb and told me it was safe to grow.  People tend to call it dark night of the soul; however it's the triple darkness that all universal entities must go into in order to develop for their eventual creation.  I was literally cycling through what would be the my rebirth, and you were the midwife.

Every morning I lit the Peace candle and cried before work.  It felt like coming to the CubeFarm was a literal Hell, burning away any facets of my soul.  When I got home, I'd light it and cry some more; wondering why was I being pushed to the brink of utter breakdown when all I wanted to do was live.  Every day I prayed and every day it felt like I was being sent to voicemail.  Days turned into weeks until finally I just gave up.  I gave up on trying to control anything and it was at that point when someone picked up to say "Hello.  We have this from here."

Each new candle became a contraction until I was ready to be delivered.  I clearly remember the conversation we had when you were sent a message to create the Amour Eterno candle the same weekend I was sent the message to clean space for honoring my departed loved ones.  That was the final push.  And there you were, that Wednesday.  Same smile, hug and excitement when I told you the story of the previous weekend.  You were sent by God/Divine/Spirit/Universe/Allah...you were sent to aid in everything I'm doing now.  You were sent to show me that my prayers were indeed heard, but I was too blinded by pain to recognize you as the spiritual guide to the answer.

When a new gift is revealed, or an enhancement to an existing one, I am told to come to you for aid in development.  When it was time for me to see people with the 3rd Eye, you sprayed me that day and so much unfolded.  The real was revealed, and unknowingly, you armed me with the protection oil so they could not reach and harm us.  But we didn't fully talk about it for weeks because as the Quran says "And yet they plan.  Then Allah plans.  And Allah is the best of planners."  You are always sent at the time when I need the Divine the most.

Your magic is real. Your intentions are pure.  Your blessings are divine.  I can't thank you enough for accepting the call to be a vessel filled with the love and spiritual power from the Creator of us all.  I can't thank you enough for choosing to be of service to humanity.  I can't thank you enough for aiding in the birth of this me.  For all of that I support you.  For all of that I trust you.  For all of that I love you and everything that you do.  You are guided, gifted and a soul source.

Houss Freya

thank you,
Amuri